Did you know that those who appear to be really strong are those that are most sensitive? Did you know that those who spend all their time protecting others really need someone to protect them? Did you know that the three hardest things in life to say are: I love you, I am sorry and Please help me.
This quote rings so very true for me, I have been told so many times that I appear to be so strong but, believe me when I am alone in the evenings I cry and I worry and I am likely one of the most sensitive people you could even meet. I do try and spend all of my time protecting others sometimes forgetting about myself but, I do need someone to protect me.I know that is hard to believe from a big tough girl that likes to rough house with the boys. As a small child that person was my daddy and now that I am grown I look to my husband, the best man in the world (aside from my daddy) to protect me.
Last but not least I want to tell all of my friends and family...I LOVE YOU, you all mean so much to me and I wouldn't be half the woman I am today without each and every one of you. I AM SORRY, sorry for anything I have ever said or done to upset you. Sorry for any decisions I have ever made that have affected your life in a negative way and I am sorry for not returning phone calls, texts. emails and messages as soon as I should. And finally PLEASE HELP ME, please help me to be the best mom I can be for all of my children but most of all for Jordan since he will always be a child. Please help me to keep the strength when I am feeling weak and please help me to pick up the pieces of my life and carry on no matter what happens and how much I think I can't do it anymore.
To you all my love runs deep within my veins and I appreciate all you do for us as a family. In case you might of guessed tonight is one of those nights when I do not feel like the strong, tough, super-mom some of you think I am. I am Jordan's mom, I am Jordan's voice and I look forward to the future even though it scares the hell out of me! Thank you all for taking the time to read Jordan's blog, I know it is long, and I have been known to ramble on at times but I do appreciate it.
One last thing: I LOVE YOU, I AM SORRY and PLEASE HELP ME...don't ever be afraid to say it!
Meda dont ever be sorry, you are the strongest woman I know and you have made me a stronger and better person just by being honored to be your friend and in your family's life. Keep being the person you are and dont change a thing, you touch me so deeply by being the best mom you are and I hope one day I can be HALF the mother you are. I love you girl <3
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